Newbie but also crazy

Bella P

Hi Blue lighters!
I’m a long time reader but new member (like 90% of you all lol)
I used to consider myself to be an Oscar worthy actress. I had struggled with ptsd for 12 years and hid various substance abuse issues. it all came crumbling down around me this year when I could not mask my suicidal thoughts with substances, so I made the first attempt on my life, followed by the second 2 days later..
The third was 3 days after that and a close call.

Now I’m out of hiding, the real me is now on show for the world to see. I’m ok with that… but I do still partake in chasing short lived happiness.

Anyway long story short. Thanks for having me. I hope I can continue to learn, but mostly I hope I can offer some helpful reading to others like I have always received from this forum in the past

So ‘ello!

BP
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Bearlove

Welcome to the site

As you have been lurking you probably know your way around but if you have any questions please feel free to ask.

Bella P

Thanks Bearlove

heather1113

Glad to have you

Bella P

Thank you muchly heather1113

Bella Figura

Welcome aboard, I guess we’ll make room for two Bellas on here 🙂

Bella P

Thanks Bella.
Rad chick with a rad name. 😂
I can be Bellb if that helps 😉😉😉

Bella P

Welcome to the site

As you have been lurking you probably know your way around but if you have any questions please feel free to ask.

Question, if you don’t mind!
I have only recently joined, typically I would Google things and bluelight posts would come up. So I am still trying to figure out how the site works.
Anyways my rambling aside lol

I’m using the search function to find posts that have answers that I seek so thats fine..
I think.

I am a bit nervous about making posts in the wrong section… So is it safe to use the ‘homeless threads’ section? until I figure it out? I’m in a bit of a sticky situation with Phenibut and I need some fast advice.

Thanks Bell(b)a 😂

D’s

welcome to the community Bella, I am so glad that you are here typing. I don’t get out much but when i do i like to say hello to the newcomers, after reading some of your story i can say that theres a reason for me here today talking with you, trust me, you are not the only one on this board thats tried the ‘easyer and softer way’, much love towards you Bella <3 <3 🙂 sure, until you figure out which sub-fourm to post in then the homeless section is good. you can also search for specific threads when using the search function, i think you have to use advanced search and check a box 'titles only' or something of that nature. if you ever need someone to talk to then i'm here for you today and when ever you need a friend or a good listener. <3